Fever

Yesterday was a very jialat day for me.
I slept almost the whole day till love came to find me in the night.
Body was aching, no appetite for anything.
Met love in the night and went to eat dinner.
I suggested McDonald as I thought I will have the appetite.
But I was wrong, love ordered for me on Filet-O-Fish.
Few mouth of it and I'm full.
Love still force me by feeding it into my mouth.
After that chit-chay with love at the void deck.
Discussing with him if I should sign bond with hospital.
And the conclusion is not. LOL!
Love send me home after that as my body is aching like hell.
he piggy back me, but for a while only.
Cos my body is so painful that a slight touch on me I will feel the pain.
Nevertheless, no matter how sick I am.
I never regret meeting you baby :D

It's Friday

It's Friday Friday, gonna get down on Friday.
Everybody's looking forward to the weekend ~
HEHEE, YEAP! Congrats me man!
My 2weeks of torture ENDED!
Wah super shiock! Kelin is seriously a happy girl now!
Went home straight after attachment.
Now waiting for my love to come and meet me.
And OFF we go! To where? I also don't know.
But I'm seriously damn damn happy happy now!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA

Seond last day tomorrow

Yeap, as usual I'm still counting down.
Attachment ending this week and there comes my holiday.
Work wasn't really good for me.
Was feeling a bit dulan towards him also.
We are in the same boat for goodness sake.
Can't even share those things? forget it then.
Anyway I've forgive that idiot,
since he can act like nothing happen and talk to me.

Ohwell, gonna head to bed now.
Tomorrow morning shift and finding my precious after that.
CIAO ~

Counting down 3days

Yeap, as my title mention, 3 more days to END of attachment.
Super shiock to the max. Work wasn't good today.
Starting of the day kena scolded already.
The different thing is I'm the only one get scolded.
Some idiot backstabbed me.
I don't know who the hell the person is.
But if you're a back stabber, perhaps I don't have to dig you out.
Cause you 没脸见人 right.
But oh well, I apologise to the teacher.
Cause I'm a student. LOL!
Ok la, it was my fault as I have to admit my attitude was too bad already.
Was still feeling bad mood cause of love's overseas trip.
PS told me that most prob he won't be chosen anymore.
But one day the result is not out, one day I live in fear and insecurities.
That leads to my bad attitude towards people who aren't close with me.
No matter what I still treat my friends very good ok!
Other than my love, cause I really don't want him to go..
I didn't mean to show you attitude eh my precious.
I just don't know how to control my mood yet.
Thinking of you leaving me for good makes me feel so sian.
I can only use attitude to hide my tears.
You should know right, your gf got a tap water eyes.
No matter what I still love you precious
Baby, I want to watch the sunset and sunrise with you, alone, can I?

Attachment

Work was awesome today, super awesome.
Reached there the first hour of work kena scolding already.
It's things that we didn't do, yet get scolded.
Thanks to the guy uh, super jialat.
Common sense, some things we know that we shouldn't do infront of people.
He went to do it, bringing a bad reputation for our group.
The worst thing ever, he didn't realise his mistake.
Linda and I were super dulan with him..

Love was enjoying his chalet yet I'm having attachment.
So envy and jealous of him.
Kind of regret never go his school.
Shouldn't have study this course,
not my passion, a waste of my 3years.
But, whatever, it's dad's money.
Since he wants me to finish it, I'll finish for his sake.
But I don't understand, I don't intend to work this line in the future.
Why the hell am I studying? -.-

Weenend at SAF resort

Enjoyed my weekend with my love.
Went to love's house yesterday, and head down to SAF chalet.
Went there with love and his brother to prepare the party.
The 1st month celebration for baby Ayden.
It was a fun one, I played with Huiru like one crazy girl,
but enjoyed playing with her.
Spend the night with my love only at the resort.
Watched movie together,
it was a funny Malaysia movie.
Lie in love's huggie and suddenly tears came rolling down again.
Thousands and millions of unwilling for him to go.
He had nothing to say but only "baby please don't cry"

Slept till this morning, went to have breakfast with him.
Went back to prepare and head-ed home.
So she bu de him, but we still have to part today no matter what.
Cos I'll be having my attachment tomorrow..

Things aren't going smoothly for me during the past few days.
I kept doing silly wrong mistakes,
but luckily it's never too late to mend it.
Even had disagreement with 2 of the guys there,
cause they don't know how to see my dulan plus sian face.
I don't care people say I overeact or what,
I just feel sad, and I can't control it I swear! ))))))))))))):

Baby, I always wanted to tell you this,
but I'm afraid of the tears coming down non-stop..
afraid of telling you how much I really love you,
afraid of you finding me annoying as I kept repeating myself.
Although I keep repeat and repeat the same things, all are true..

Friends said that I'm stopping you from going.
stopping you from moving towards a better future.
Yeap, I won't deny that I'm a selfish girl.
I'm selfish that I only think of myself,
think of my own loneliness but neglected your future.

Talked on phone with you last night,
and realise that you actually wanted to give it a try.
If that's the case, move on.
No one can guarantee our love won't change,
but I'll be good and wait for you.

with love, your baby(':

FINALLY!

Yes! My Common test is finally over.
Coming up next week will be 2weeks of attachment in KKH.
Looking forward to it, to bathe the baby and stuff.
After paper today went to love's house to meet him.
Wasn't being selected for the OIP trip, kind of sad.
Went to meet love, waited for him to prepare and
we head-ed to Katong for chicken rice.
After that went to walk around and train-ed home.

On the way home we talked about love's 5months trip again.
Though it's not comfirm yet but I still can't stop myself from worrying.
One day the result is not out,
one day I won't feel safe.
I feel so confused, I wanted him to go, for a better future.
Yet I wanted him to stay, for my selfishness.
But there's nothing we can do now,
but to wait for the result to be out..

BACK!

Yeap! I'm back once again to blog.
Today is a extremely moody day for me.
Yesterday I want to meet love after my school,
he said he wants to enjoy with his friend so I didn't meet him.
Called him at 11plus he told me he's going for supper with his friend,
and going other places to slack for A WHILE.
Expecting him to reach home at maybe 3plus 4..
Reminded him to message me once he reached home,
just to ensure that he's safe, he didn't.

Woke up at 7.45am plus today,
slowly prepared and head-ed to love's house at 11plus.
His mother came to open the door,
and the first sentence was " he reached home in the morning"
Was quite angry, didn't you promise me
that you gonna accompany me on Sat?
Yet you reached home at sat in the morning,
how you gonna accompany me?
Hold my hands and sleep in your lala land throughout the whole day?

Studied till love was awake,
still quite unhappy over that incident.
Had some disagreement after that,
I said something wrong he black face,
he said something wrong I black face.
Then we went to have our supper at Hougang Plaza ASTON.
Quite nice eh the food there, then we went to shop around followed by pool.
Yeah pool! Like finally! After so long love finally willing to play with me!
Play play a while, love and friends decided to go to Kovan for Beancurd.
But it's packed so we separated from there.
Walked home with love, he's super super sweet.
Just can't stop myself from loving him.
When he's in danger situation, he actually thought of me,
tried to keep himself safe just to not let me be alone.
Was super touched to hear that, but I act as if I don't care. HEHE