went to ask my girl about hostel in NP.
if really got a choice i really wanna leave this house.
they controlling me too much le.
feel so suffocated. i feel really damn guilty.
especially when my friends have to change their timing cos of me.
i tried lots of ways le, sit down talked nicely with him.
but seems that they controlling me even more.
the only choice i have now is to leave this house.
this house doesn't have a single warmth,
it's just like a HOTEL to me!
dad cut of my allowance, say that he doesn't want to care about me anymore.
end up leh? allowance really got cut off.
but he still call me in the middle of the night rushing me home.
wad they want sia?! i also nv go home late le.
now little bit things also want to call.
this sun.. is the one and only chance for my freedom.
if after this sun nth changes,
i will try to move out of this house.. and nv come back!

girlfriend went overseas 2 days ago.
left with 7 days to her return.
i got so many things to tell her lor.
i just simply hate my family.
i dont like, sometimes i think that i got no freedom lo.
like cant go overseas with friends.
OR EVEN WITH MY MUM.
cant stay out late at night.
cant ton with friend.
i know what he will say, "you are a girl"
but HEY! im 19 already!
he cant protect me forever one lor.
cos of his this type of protection i dont know the outside world.
next time if i really am alone,
i dont even know how to take care of myself.
but that time.. HOW?!

lots of things happening.
in the first place i dont mean to brk off anyone's friendship.
i always thinks that you both are the closest.
everytime we went out, you both always have the topic i dont understand.
i dont mean to snatch anyone away from anyone.
i wish that we could be the same friends as last time.
but i think things can never be the same le.

just when i found someone close,
someone understands me.
just when i feel contented with my life.
everything seems to break in the night.

J girlfriend, you are right.
something bothering me.
i promised to tell you,
but i dont even know whr to start from..

I've a good gf, and a good god bro.
I'm contented with my life :D
just wish this will last forever..

we talked alot yesterday, about him and her.
those feelings are just so hurtful,
hope it's not true.
even if it is, there is nothing much i can do.. =

suddenly feel like blogging, but nothing much to post.
basically last wk is a busy work.
worked as promoter at CP and waitress at XXH.
got one day after worked at CP rush down to XXH.
niceone sia. i love this type of life.
but just super tiring, i even doze off when im standing!
hahas, this few days same lo.
keep go home late. met J and company.
went to play pool after work.
sooooooooo addicted to pool sia, i'm loving it ~
tmr have to go expo to return card.
waiting for someone's reply, dont know can accompany not =/