Another MC

Didn't go to school today, gum pain since yesterday.
Went to my dental, he said my teeth is almost done already.
But I told him I'm not really satisfy with it,
he suggested an operation, I got so upset.
Don't really want to go for ANOTHER operation.
The dental said "you've been through such a long way, why not just go on with this last surgery?"
Said is always easier than done,
no one really know the pain I've been through before.
Every 6weeks going through the same pain.
After each appointment still have to bear with pain for few days.
Have you ever feel the pain where screw is being screwed inside your gum?
Ever had 2-3 injections in ur gum in a row?
Pinch yourself in the hand or thigh just to reduce the pain in ur gum?
I had all that, and I'm tired of it somehow.

Love suggests me to go on with the surgery as well.
But I'm tired already, seriously tired.
So I still think to seriously think over what I really want.

Had a talk with love last night,
he told me that maybe he will be going to China for attachment, for 2months.
I should be happy for him,
but somehow I don't really feel that way.
However as his gf, I will support his decision no matter what..
If something happen between us because of this,
it can only shows that we don't love each other as much as we thought.
But if we were still together after this,
It proves that we are just the one for one another <3