Apologising isn't really enough

Lots of unhappiness happening between baby boy and me,
other than apologising, I don't really know what I can do.
Most of the quarrel started because of me.
Being stubborn, not attentive, attitude and many more.
I guess baby is also trying his best to keep his cool.
Don't really know what's wrong with me either.
School work? Stress or?

Had a quarrel with bro last week,
now thinking back, was it really his fault?
Or my fault? Saw one of baby's tweet.
Enviroment changes, do people?
Was afraid to let baby have the thinking that I've change.
Can't afford to lose him though.
He's always with me for the past two years,
Really don't know what to do without him.

Baby boy, don't know if you will get to see this post,
I'm really sorry for so many quarrels.
I really dont want to, trying very hard to control my attitude as well..
It's not just saying but I'm really really trying.
Anyway, enough of my nonsense..
It's your first day of work tomorrow,
wish you all the best, last but not least, I love you